This is the scariest and most exciting place I have ever been.
I have faced childbirth. (Not as horrifying as the movies make it out to be.)
I have faced heart complications at a young age. But even that didn't leave me with this feeling of uncertainty.
I am on the precipice of adulthood.
Now I consider myself an adult, as most people would. I maintain my own residence. I am a mother. I work and pay bills. I have the responsibilities of an adult and the lifestyle, but I do not yet consider this my adulthood.
I am not on the life track I have set for myself.
I am about to graduate college. I am applying for jobs in my field of study and preparing to move to a new state. All of which are decisions I have made for the direction of my life.
For the first time I am taking steps into the future I have chosen.
Until now, I have worked the job that came along and paid the bills. I never WANTED a position before. I simply wanted a pay check.
I live in the state I grew up in, the one my parents moved me to.
I am on the edge of what I have always done and what I have always known and I'm ready for the change.
But change doesn't come without fear, hesitation and uncertainty.
I am at the mercy of employers.
Will they like my resume? Will they like my work? Will I like the career path I have chosen for myself, or will it one day end up feeling like a chore? Can I compete in this job market with my lower level degree?
Millions of questions are running through my mind.
And it's exciting, because it is new and unusual.
I don't have the answers to any of these questions. I don't think anyone does. But I do know I'm not the only graduate feeling this way.
We will all get there. All we have to do is jump and have a little faith.
Congratulations to the Class of 2012.
