The Precipice

This is the scariest and most exciting place I have ever been.

I have faced childbirth. (Not as horrifying as the movies make it out to be.)

I have faced heart complications at a young age. But even that didn't leave me with this feeling of uncertainty.

I am on the precipice of adulthood.

Now I consider myself an adult, as most people would. I maintain my own residence. I am a mother. I work and pay bills.  I have the responsibilities of an adult and the lifestyle, but I do not yet consider this my adulthood.

I am not on the life track I have set for myself.

I am about to graduate college.  I am applying for jobs in my field of study and preparing to move to a new state.  All of which are decisions I have made for the direction of my life.

For the first time I am taking steps into the future I have chosen.

Until now, I have worked the job that came along and paid the bills.  I never WANTED a position before.  I simply wanted a pay check.

I live in the state I grew up in, the one my parents moved me to.

I am on the edge of what I have always done and what I have always known and I'm ready for the change.

But change doesn't come without fear, hesitation and uncertainty.

I am at the mercy of employers.

Will they like my resume?  Will they like my work?  Will I like the career path I have chosen for myself, or will it one day end up feeling like a chore?  Can I compete in this job market with my lower level degree?

Millions of questions are running through my mind.

And it's exciting, because it is new and unusual.

I don't have the answers to any of these questions.  I don't think anyone does.  But I do know I'm not the only graduate feeling this way.

We will all get there.  All we have to do is jump and have a little faith.

Congratulations to the Class of 2012.